Ronin

When the sun sinks slowly down

melting into a red pool

are you satisfied with what you’ve done

have you given just the best

and would your work pass this test

At night then

we run thru the halls of our fame

but the fame is long gone

try to grab the sword

but the iron burns signs of disgrace

into your flesh

the incapability of mediocricity

will rule your remaining life

and when did the sword start to become a knife ?

If you show fear

no one will protect you

so hide away those trembling hands

treacherous signs of weakness

the enemy won’t show any mercy.

At day then

we run on the battlefield

wading thru blood and bones

hear the echo of pain and death

a symphony of agony:

I’m dying, I’m dying, I’m dying tonight.

We are dying, we are dying, we are dying

in this fight.

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Old lavender

It’s not the same anymore
why that I do not know
but I know it’s not me

Patience might be a virtue
but it’s no rubber band
you could stretch infinitely

then I meet you again
and think it could be like it was before
but you are just like blind windows
there’s no introducing door
and it tears me apart
cos it’s still in the air
the scent of old lavender
the smell of your hair

a face like a granite statue
no signs of remorse
I can’t hardly look at you
your courtesy makes it even worse

what I’ve missed seems long gone

How it came

loud music in the air
standing too close
but not close enough
wishing they would not be here
but it’s safer though
hating the body that proofs
simple biology
hating the human mankind
for this chemistry
How it came
friends of friends
when they met
it was their end

ليبيسليد

when the darkness comes with night

I wait for her embrace

and fall into a hole

sunrise is my enemy

cos early sun is a thief

she steals my dreams from me

and while the day fades pale away

I wander like a ghost

did you see me when you lingered around

and did you notice about taste

either it’s bitter or it’s sweet

there’s nothing left in between

why can’t I remember the word

that shook the tower’s walls and

made it fall apart

and when the dark comes back to me

I think of your oracular eyes

 

and if you know about mine

nightingale sings a song

it might be a well known one

but I can’t hear the melody

until you come back to me

The ludic drive

just jump off the swing

the wind carries you softly

carries every word thru the air

every word I’ve never meant

I hide between the trees

I want you to find me there

in my forest you’ll get lost

I will whisper in your ear

don’t believe what you see

don’t believe what you feel

don’t believe anything at all

and does it really matter in the end

I don’t care about myself

everything will be alright

and what I say today

is long gone by the night

 

don’t believe what you see

don’t believe what you feel

don’t believe anything at all

and does it even matter in the end

 

one who seems delicate

might be the one who will break you

a cruel automatic game she plays

her ludic drive comes through

a sweet voice burns your hope

you know these words too well

don’t believe what you see

don’t believe what you feel

don’t believe anything at all

Arsonist

He whispers in her ear

her face like pretty china 

cracks into thousand pieces

this is the best part

to watch her fall apart

arousal stops the beat of my heart

she closes her eyes and 

bows her perfect head

can’t hardly hide she’s doing bad 

I know how she feels now

just like I did before

when I wished her dead. 

“moral is a cold coat”

it was this

what she once told

and did it suit you well, my dear ?

Hysteria/Ritual/Silent Hill

I.

no food to dirt this body 

to suffer is so easy 

and makes her walking higher

until she feels true holy

sanctum sanctum sanctorum

God is a dog beside her feet

Jesus wants to possess her

this piercing hunger burns sweet 

no sleep to interfere this ecstasy 

the lovely voices in her head

tell from the sweet hereafter

iron bars keep her from flying 

but not from dying 

sanctum sanctum sanctorum

God is a dog beside her feet

Jesus wants to possess her

this piercing hunger runs so deep

they call her hysteric and not at all 

mysteric

but she knows she is chosen 

a hallowed grail to be filled 

Gabriel’s fiery sword shines so brigthly in the sun 

makes her go blind

her visions cannot be undone 

sanctum sanctum sanctorum

screams it on bloody knees

raises her shaking hands like a tray 

with her beautiful eyeballs on it

whispers “just like St. Lucia did”  

II.

Echoes hall through 

the cathedral 

like beautiful birds

it’s hard to remember 

when I felt the same

those beautiful birds 

Black robe came up the stairs

stops at my door 

and I don’t want to know

what he came for

what he came for

I look in anxious faces

and I wonder why

I’m not the enemy 

it’s this thing inside

inside me 

it locked me up and now

I can’t go back

it bounds me like a statue to my bed

lifts me up, shakes me around, starts to speak

in an unknown sound 

it holds me captive I don’t know why

I feel so lonely, it won’t let me cry


murmur rises in my dark room

someone lights incense and candles

Black robe bends slowly over my bed

starts to drip some water upon my head

I wish I could just stand up and go

let it all go


But I can’t go back

it bounds me like a statue to my bed

lifts me up, shakes me around,starts to speak

in an unknown sound 

it holds me captive, I don’t know why 

I feel so lonely, it won’t let me cry

Once I watched the sunrise 

red and rose

where has it gone now

no one knows

am I gone

God gone

am I gone

no one

 

 

III.

 

 

everything fades

grey and pale 

hanami of ashes  

no dawn no twilight 

stabbing blindfold 

towards nothing  


screams crescend within the streets 

a choir of lost creatures 

a march of death doomed till resurrection

your sane mind denies the horror 

but you know this is happening

 

you can feel that it’s true 

it’s the horror in you. 

a nightmare

when you lost your most precious 

you became a phantom of what you used to be 

tried so hard to get back what you’ve loved most 

and lost heart and life 

in the end 

the house you owned is so empty now 

it’s haunted 

he hears your voice 

but you’re not there 

you’re gone 

to Silent Hill 

there’s no way back.